import of old blog posts

posts/task-failed-successfully.mdx

@@ -0,0 +1,21 @@
+---
+title: "Task Failed Successfully"
+description: "Getting rejected but feeling accomplished anyway, and figuring out that having money is surprisingly hard to manage."
+date: "2019-11-21"
+---
+
+I was meaning to write this post last week but I got caught up in homework and work, so I'm writing it now.
+
+Last week was wonderful. I finally got enough courage and asked out my crush. You're probably curious about her response — well, she said no. She said she didn't want to date anyone at that moment, so I got rejected. But I was quite happy with the result. I mean, I finally asked somebody out. The feeling of overcoming your fear is awesome. By doing it I boosted my confidence so much.
+
+My cousin's daughter had her 1-year birthday party on Saturday, so naturally we went. I actually enjoyed my time there — I talked to my uncle about my job and economics.
+
+This week, on the other hand, was strange. I was feeling weird. Last week I had been feeling somewhat accomplished and full of joy. But this week was completely different — I didn't have any goal to accomplish, which could explain the weird feelings. I got some not-so-great grades and had two difficult tests.
+
+But I also got paid yesterday, and oh man... that feeling when you get your payment is so joyous I honestly can't describe it. You have to experience it yourself.
+
+And with it, I found a new problem to solve. I started spending money like water. The problem is that I have a fairly nice bank balance at the moment, and when I spend 100 or 50 PLN, I don't see that much change in my account. So my brain thinks I'm not spending much and proceeds to spend even more. And **this is bad**.
+
+I guess I have to get used to having a little more money than I've ever had before.
+
+So the last two weeks flew right in front of my eyes. Thanksgiving is next week but my family doesn't celebrate it, so I'm just waiting for Black Friday — maybe I'll buy something cool this year.