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title: "Task Failed Successfully"
description: "Getting rejected but feeling accomplished anyway, and figuring out that having money is surprisingly hard to manage."
date: "2019-11-21"
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I was meaning to write this post last week but I got caught up in homework and work, so I'm writing it now.

Last week was wonderful. I finally got enough courage and asked out my crush. You're probably curious about her response — well, she said no. She said she didn't want to date anyone at that moment, so I got rejected. But I was quite happy with the result. I mean, I finally asked somebody out. The feeling of overcoming your fear is awesome. By doing it I boosted my confidence so much.

My cousin's daughter had her 1-year birthday party on Saturday, so naturally we went. I actually enjoyed my time there — I talked to my uncle about my job and economics.

This week, on the other hand, was strange. I was feeling weird. Last week I had been feeling somewhat accomplished and full of joy. But this week was completely different — I didn't have any goal to accomplish, which could explain the weird feelings. I got some not-so-great grades and had two difficult tests.

But I also got paid yesterday, and oh man... that feeling when you get your payment is so joyous I honestly can't describe it. You have to experience it yourself.

And with it, I found a new problem to solve. I started spending money like water. The problem is that I have a fairly nice bank balance at the moment, and when I spend 100 or 50 PLN, I don't see that much change in my account. So my brain thinks I'm not spending much and proceeds to spend even more. And **this is bad**.

I guess I have to get used to having a little more money than I've ever had before.

So the last two weeks flew right in front of my eyes. Thanksgiving is next week but my family doesn't celebrate it, so I'm just waiting for Black Friday — maybe I'll buy something cool this year.
